

A new year filled with lots of changes.
My son left the beginning of the month to start his career in the Army. He is currently going through basic training. I look forward to the weeks ahead. To supporting him through this time in his life and to be there for him when he graduates in the spring.
Times have changed. 30 years ago when my hubby (then boyfriend) went away we had no contact with him until he graduated. Now there are websites, Facebook pages, cell phones and photos that we can look through. Life is good! All of these changes make this time for us parents easier. So please keep him in your prayers and thoughts.
I don't make New Years resolutions but I do take time to reflect on the year before and evalutate what I should do differently this year. What improvements I should make, in myself and in my life.
The past few years have been a struggle for me. Emotionally and physically. I will turn 49 this year. As 50 looms near I realize that I have not been true to myself - in many areas. I have let my wants and needs be pushed to the way side as I have had to focus so much time and energy into being a wife and mother. In a world where so many women have been taught to put their careers ahead of their family I guess I have lead an "archaic" ideal of family life, where mom stays home, does the cooking and chores and is always available. I'm happy that I have chosen this path, no regrets. But it hasn't been an easy choice during times when women no longer cook or have chosen traditional roles in a marriage.
Now I'm not saying I'm unique, I know there are many women who make the choice to leave careers and be SAHM. It's just, at times, makes me feel different. That's all.
So now....as I'm reaching a different point in my life...with my first born leaving home. My baby only having 2 years left in high school and I'm almost 50 that I have to stop and think about changes.
And yes, going through that "change" in a woman's life I have to try to take the time to find what I want to do the next 10-20-30 years of my life.
So. I plan on drawing more, watercoloring, painting, yes crocheting and knitting.
And I want to color again. I do want to get back into card making. But in a different way.
For me, not for anyone else. But for what I want, what will make me happy.
I want to be creative.
I want to be an artist, again.
Thank you for sticking with me.
Thank you for letting me share my passions with you.
Thank you for the journey.